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Views: 2116 | Started By: baritonebabe | Replies: 5
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hey every1, i had never dated ne1 for more than 10 days, so whenever i asked the guy of my dreams out and he said yes, i was the happiest i've ever been in my life. i never knew it was possible to be that happy. we dated for 3 months, and i knew he would be the one to end it someday, but i just didn't expect it to be that day. i never understood love songs or mushy parts of shows and movies until i dated him. the worst part of all is that i never got to kiss him. i kept telling myself that "oh i'm fixing my hair different, he'll watn to kiss me today" or that mistletoe would come somewhere or that for sure we'd kiss when the ball dropped, but he broke up with me on the 20th of jan. i tried cutting myself, but i didn't want to jab the knife in and all my knives at my house are really dull. i guess God doesn't want me to hurt myself. i tried again last night, but i did it with jewlery pins, but they didn't break the skin. i was really mopey for about 2 or 3 weeks after he broke up with me, but then i started day dreaming about other guys. then i wore some clothing that i liked and everybody thought i was still moping about him. that kinda made me digress back to thinking about him. prom is coming up and i'm hoping he'll ask me as friends; it seems like something he would do, and everybody i know thinks he most likely will, but i'm so afraid. i don't think i love him, but i miss him so much. i just want another chance to try to kiss him or for him to give me a hug or just to talk to me at school even. we still do our playful hitting each other some days, but we never talk. i have so many day dreams that he'll tell me that it was the worst mistake of his life and he misses me, but i kow in my head that they will never come true, yet my heart won't listen. does anybody know what i should do?
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baritonebabe Hi,First and formost you don't have to kill yourself, rememeber it's only the living that can love and be loved,from your letter I see you really love this guy, but I think I have an idea, when you love someone you tell them, sometimes we don't tell them because of pride and ego, but real love is not dreams and fantasies, so go ahead and look for him, but this time tell him and let him know you love him and really want to be with him, if he says no then move on with your live.I know you find true love someday, but this time you have to open up your heart and not your head.I wish all the best ok.wilson
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| Responded: emailme |
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i wasn't planning on killing myself, i just want to hurt myself. i really care about him, but we're still decent friends and i don't want to ruin that. i would love to just be able to tell him how i feel, but i know it will freak him out and i'll lose his friendship as well as what i have already lost with him. he is a really cool guy to even be friends with. i really don't know what i would do if i didn't have his friendship. plus, telling him how i really feel would end up sounding like i was begging for him to take me back; i'm not the kind of chick to beg. i know if i cared that much about him i wouldn't care, but again: the whole friendship thing is really keeping me back. if i am ever presented with the perfect opportunity to tell him, i'm sure i will, but i don't think i can just come out and tell him the truth.
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| Responded: baritonebabe |
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I know how you feel,I cant stop thinkin about my ex.I sit and hope that he'll change his mind,and take me back,this is so hard,but I guess we never know what's in store for us.
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| Responded: SilvaDolla |
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Hello baritonbabe...What should you do? The others are right... Talk with him and tell him what does he want... To be your boyfriend or your friend? Then you'll have it clear... And it's natural that you can't stop thinking about him and daydream about him taking you back... I'm waiting for my boyfriend to take me back or leave me forever and believe that's hard... But I know it will pass, whatever it is.If he doesn't love you, just move on and you'll find someone who deserves you.
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| Responded: Madushetta |
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Never give up hope! I would know cuz im 10.
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| Responded: Can't Tell! |
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