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here i am sitting by the phone waiting for *his* call and wondering if it will ever come--wondering if his heart will ever decide its with me that he's meant be. see his divorce isn't final yet but we were dating despite of that since he and, we'll call her heather, have over all a good friendship. well once she found out that, we'll call him thomas, and i were dating. then she asked if he was willing to work things out. of course i said go to her if you think it will work, you are the father of her two children and you have to do whats best for your family.
well luckily for me, things didn't work out between he and his ex (yeah, i know i sound selfish) but he still wants to keep it between he and i ask just friends until he figures out what he needs in his life. he says he know he still loves her but he can't decide it thats only because she is the mother of his two girls or if it's because he still wants to be with her. unfortunatly he wants to make it through the holidays without going back home to heather before he starts a relationship. now he and i are still talking about with a slight buzz last night managed to make out in front of the entire bar last night (good job i know). i know he still has feelings for me--he still looks at me the same. when i saw him tonight and i was upset because all of this is driving me INSANE he looked, held my face and wiped the tears away. too sweet. but what if he is just playing with me? what if i am blindly sitting on the back burner? of course he assures me other wise and encourages me to date other people if i want to but i feel like i can't. it will be to akward if i run into his somewhere knowing how i feel about him--i love him--he doesn't know it yet, but i do. i cant figure this out. i am so beyond confused.
Ok if a gut tells you that you can date other people then he doesn't care to much about you otherwise he would of said don't date other people and when he told you to date other people that ment he already was dating other people. So he's trying to give you a low key hint.